Ever since I have been to City On A Hill's Vision Night last month, I have been considering on whether I should concentrate my areas of service to COAH or not. There are a lot of things that are in the pipeline that I am really excited about and it makes me re-evaluate my time spent serving at church. I have been thinking and praying about it for quite a while now and it is not an easy decision on it.
There are a few reasons that it is a difficult thing to decide on but one of the main things is that I would not be involved in music anymore. That is a pretty big thing even though that I am not that good at the music thing. I think it is partly to do with the fact that I am a bassist (Oh, we need a bassist. You look like you can play bass). I love music especially when you get to do really good things for music in church. But in order that I might concentrate my efforts to just COAH means that I will have to give up the whole idea that I can be serving in music. And you know, after months of ruminating about it, I find that it is not a big deal for me to give that up. I'm slowly letting go of what I want to do in church and instead to ask the question what can I do in church. I think being around the people in church has made that leap a bit easier to make. Bass playing shall now be shifted to being a hobby, I'm not much of a performer anyway no matter how much I try.
Another part is that I will be moving away from the very people that I used to hang out and serve when I first came to Melbourne as a student 10 years ago. Even though that most of them wouldn't really think of me now when it comes to events or what nots, I still remember what they were/are to me. It is also the church where I have a proper grounding in the Bible which I am eternally grateful for. 10 years of good Bible teaching, 10 years of serving and 10 years of bad pastor's jokes, it's a lot to move away from and lots have changed. I am really apprehensive about not being apart of all of that. But I think it is time that I begin to make that move. I haven't quite decided yet on when I should make the move but it is in the horizon. I'm sure people will barely notice that I will be gone anyway which would be a lot easier on me.
I kinda wish that I can be at two places at once, but I am not a quantum mechanical being. And so I must choose.
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Speaking of quantum mechanics, I think I am at the stage where I have met enough people that any other new person that I meet will remind me of people in the past. It is a very strange place to be in, just like the world of quantum mechanics.
Take my new housemate for example. She reminds me of different people depending on what she is doing. The resemblance is uncanny at times. I think the last time I counted she reminds me of at least 5 different people. There is probably more but I haven't observed them yet.
And recently, we have a new comer in our small group who also reminds me of another person that I know. Again the resemblance is uncanny.
I think I am just weird. Weirder than normal. Everyone is weird.
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Speaking of being weird. This.
Swoon. So good.
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Speaking of good. This.
She's so cute and massively talented. You should check out the rest of her stuff on her Youtube channel.
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