This blog has always been about expressing my thoughts and sometimes my emotions, no matter how vague they are, whether deliberate or not. And sometimes it is fun to detail all of these things to a barely existing audience because I thrive in anonymity. There's also a reason on why I feel this way but I shall not divulge my core reason.
However, there are times where both my thoughts and emotions are in crisis. It may not be apparent in my previous blog posts, either here or in my previous blog environment but it happens.
This is one such time.
Unlike the other crises that came before, this one had hit me pretty hard. This leaves me many questions about what should I do about myself, what should I do to my friends, is it time to uproot and start with a clean slate somewhere else and many more subquestions after that. And so I am left with no choice but begin a purging process that I normally do but on a much more severe level. It is to ensure I have some sort of sanity left and not self-destruct or stare in front of the mirror talking down to myself (I still do this).
The side effect of this process is that I will not be myself for at least 2-3 months. Maybe longer. Some of you, I suspect, from your language and non-verbal cues, that you may have picked up on this already. Forgive me when I'm in this phase. I might come off as crude, cynical, perhaps highly inappropriate, ignoring people, being awkward, withdrawn ie. dead but just bear with me. I ask of you as a friend to not give up on me for I have not much and to those who know me well enough, know that I don't ask for much, if any.
I may even stop blogging for awhile. I was thinking of doing the same to the rest of my social media sites but I think it is too difficult.
I'll see you when I see you.
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Coffee Bean: It's been 7.5 months since you've brought it up. This is the part where you say I told you so. Go ahead. I probably deserve to hear that anyway.
Fun fact: It is also more than 2.5 years since this sort of thing happened the last time.
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"...and in case I don't see ya, good afternoon, good evening and good night"
Truman Burbank
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