Our conversations strayed from side to side, covering the usual basics of catching up to random things to even avoiding some people in the place where we had our meal. It's like uni days all over again. Goodness I miss uni.
Then the real conversation began. It started with a new year resolution from my friend and quickly spread to other related areas, in particular relationships with friends and of course being the very kay-poh person my friend is, relationships. For one and a half hours, we've debated, questioned and wrestled with countless issues on this matter. And I have to say I was struggling to keep up with maintaining a coherent line of thought, harder still was to be able to convey my thoughts which I suspect is on the decline as I get older. Stretching over dinner and bubble tea, we just talked and talked that time just went by so quickly. And the bubble tea was getting warm.
Then finally, as the closing argument, my friend made this statement that shook me in a very unexpected way. "Juwen. You are a stubborn, over-thinking person, you know? Always thinking and acting the way you want it to happen. And when it doesn't, you freeze.". I was stunned for 5 seconds just in shock from what my ears were hearing. This is the part where I would start talking nonsense like in those cartoons. Here is a friend who hasn't seen me in over 2+ years and within a dinner session, saw right through me. Saying to yourself that you are stubborn and over-thinking and hopeless when things don't go your way is one thing, it is a completely different thing when you are hearing it from someone else, more so from someone whom you see as formidable. If any other normal person said this to me, I would gladly admit it. But when you get shot down like this, you admit it with a heavy burden. The two feelings are not the same, in fact the impact from the two are worlds apart.
So as we parted ways (and apparently accepted an interesting proposal), I reflected on all the relevant things that I have done and the actions I have taken and I have to say my friend is right. What my friend said about me transcends the scope of the conversation even though that's all my friend knows during that dinner session. That is how I act.
I wish I had more friends like this one, one who's not afraid to tell you that you are weak but in a totally non-judgmental, holier-than-thou way. As they say, iron sharpens iron.
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I'm usually about half a decade behind the games scene but humour me. Mass Effect is so good.
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We all have lists of people who are cute, pretty and hot, whether you know it or not. But the one that trumps them all is elegance.
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I'm really itchy to make noodles from scratch. Perhaps it is because of my ever growing desire for chilli pan mee. Like nao.
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